Turning 25... and what's then?

2014了，25了，还是有一些没有办法解决的问题。无可奉告。又多么地无可奈何。

如果你知道，请告诉我....

都这么大了，晚上睡不着觉，该怎么办？

有些东西真的很想自己亲身去试一试，想和自己说再坚持一下下就好了...可我真的觉得累了，那如何？



Dear Angels,
what can I really do? To let go the things that bother me right now...
 #hopeless#

感谢不完美。

人生真的存在着很多的不完美，很多的瑕疵... 有的时候真的很令人发指。
但是也很感谢这些，人生才算得上是完整的。

在家里，我们一样会争吵，冷战... 不爽谁谁谁... 但是，永远... 哪天，你身体某部位疼了，父母亲都是最着急的；你被外人欺凌了，兄长就是第一时间给你出头；哪天，你哭了，妹妹会给你tissues，让你擦泪....

就算是生长在同一个家庭里头，灌输的人生价值观相同，理应看待事情的态度都会一致的，但是，奇妙的是，我们每一个人从小遇见的人事物都不可能100%相似。在家里，我们一样会有异议... 更何况和朋友之间的相处，怎么可能会完美得天衣无缝呢？

每一个人对每一件事情的评论会都会不同。类似的，我们会达到共识；不类似的，我们心里会自动地取决谁是谁非。对你而言重要的，对我而言也可能只是普通而已...

也因为这样，人生就有一种学问叫作谦让，叫作妥协。

如果，你知道。人生其实并没有我们想象中的漫长。你就不会对身边的每一件事情都那么的执着。退一步不是让别人取胜，而是放过自己，让自己的心放开，装下更多的快乐与满足。

还是恭祝各位， 
新年快乐!!!

FEB

Here comes the second month in 2013-- February. My fav Jan has ady gone... Havent really enjoyed it thoroughly.... It's ady gone now, forever gone....

Why am I so busy??
Or am I really busy??? for what??

for sth called L.I.F.E

Am satisfied tho... at least, I am really doing things on my own....
I make decisions, I plan my schedule thoroughly... No one seems able to "control" me anymore..

Yupe, I guess I'm growing.. size, of course, is one thing.... I really like eating, especially those very fancy foods...(ranging from normal dishes to sweets).. that's why I keep putting myself on weight... poor thing.. but let's eat why hesitate... Technically, I'm growing... On the other side, I hope I'm becoming more mature nowadays... I do hope so... Why is this a matter? It is really a matter.... Same as my other friends, we're turning 24 this year (some of them have ady celebrated their 24th bday! Oh gosh).. If we're still being too stubborn with our own defined principles...still tied up with our egos enormously... what's gonna teach us and it'll certainly be ever-lasting is when we start losing things because of those attitudes... Time to "LET GO"!!

Living outside by my own... makes me start appreciating everything more likely... Not like in the past, I was too dependent, too like a wall-flower, too being spoiled .... until I really made myself take everything for granted.. I thought I was really a princess... Never true... I ain't a princess... It was so wrong...

Anyway, now, I do get myself a chance to see what kind of future I really want to pursue... Somehow, I think this chance has let me see things clearer... or has slightly broadened my horizons (maybe this is not true, whatever)... Life has always taught me lessons, every now and then.... It is never the end..

I shouldn't give up... no matter what... someone said, every time you're thinking to quit... then think back what reason you has been holding for so long...

I miss my family and friends... How are you guys?

=（

有些人，生活上不再交际了...... 渐渐的不说话了，渐渐的... 就疏远了



又在听到某些歌曲了以后，
心，酸
哽咽了。

無眠

外面的空氣 再新鮮 也聞不到最熟悉的懷念


回家的路好遠 你的堅決我自己的世界
實現願望的路線 非得要告別好多的從前


時間過了兩千三百七十五天
長長的路還有一千三百多公里遠
那還需要多少加崙清澈的水
才可以平衡過程中的眼淚

飛機來回越過無數次地平線
對於未來的路還是一知半解
文化大熔爐對種族還存有偏見
世界大同的夢想是否只掛在嘴邊

回家的路好遠 地球還是沒有停止轉圈
生命不斷在更變 生活總有看不清的盲點

今夜的月光超载太重 照着我一夜哄不成梦 每根头发都失眠~

Before bed,

The first Monday ever (since I came here),
I hate being school...
Just because people just don't do their homework which they supposed to do...

I was totally demotivated by those people.
Why ya?
Why I become so bothered leh har??

Because the partner of mine, we supposed to do the work together...
But she just never gets her work started!
I'm the one who always being doing my own work plus her never-touched-bits-n-pieces.

Halo!
You're not a kid.
And, I'm not gonna teach you how,
pointed to whatever the way you've been brought up, ok?

You're an adult.
I'd expect you too, to take your responsibility as a postgrad student.

I'm certainly not happy to see you being so active using iphone or ipad during the class
Doing extra "works" (ie online shopping or chat-box) just in front of the teacher.
When there is a time we can both work on to the tasks.

When I've spent so many hours and hours on doing a powerpoint,
after obtaining a feedback from teacher,
don't try to ask me to simply change the sentences with your bossy tone.
Get a whiteboard and I can even show how poor is your grammar...
I dun dare to imagine how many people is gonna understand you if you do speak so in the presentation...

"你不觉得酱子的开场白别人会听得比较明白吗？"

(shake) NO!!!
Certainly NOT!!!!!

=.=

She used the google translation to do those bibliographies
The homework which I've spent uncountable nights to struggle with...
(I abit exaggerated this, apparently) But anyway,
When the teacher asked what her writing supposed to mean...
She even started to suspect the teacher's literacy -.-
And she thought her "writing" was excellent.. =.=
How well is the google translation, everyone should be aware of  many ages ago..
You're so naive har??

And what is more is those who're always absent to the class
Because of you guys,
This subject's gonna be extended to week 9 (which supposed to be finished on next week!)
Clap for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was so excited about it-soon-gonna-be-end,
even I was so cranky doing all the tasks (related to this subject) during the weekend

I was actually motivating myself by keep saying that
"Jie, don't upset! This is gonna be a past in real soon!!"

Then this morning, the teacher said to me that,
"Jie what do you that I'm going to extend the this subject until week 9?"

WHAT!!!!
Are you serious??

Anyway,
whatever la...

I'm, indeed, looking for a space to scream out all these..
Otherwise, I will be stressed out..

I certainly will be fine tomorrow.
I'm just being so clumsy at the moment.

Well, that's the end of  the bedtime story...

Good night world! (hug)

你不要不开心 (Hugs)

Because you're the one,
I can understand your sorrow even you never told;
I can feel your pain even I'm not with you.

I feel awful when you try hiding your feelings from everyone;
And when you intend showing everyone you're perfectly fine.

I know you're not.

I'm your sister.
I'm here for you to count on.

If you wanna cry...
Cry on my shoulder...