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有些人，生活上不再交际了...... 渐渐的不说话了，渐渐的... 就疏远了



又在听到某些歌曲了以后，
心，酸
哽咽了。

無眠

外面的空氣 再新鮮 也聞不到最熟悉的懷念


回家的路好遠 你的堅決我自己的世界
實現願望的路線 非得要告別好多的從前


時間過了兩千三百七十五天
長長的路還有一千三百多公里遠
那還需要多少加崙清澈的水
才可以平衡過程中的眼淚

飛機來回越過無數次地平線
對於未來的路還是一知半解
文化大熔爐對種族還存有偏見
世界大同的夢想是否只掛在嘴邊

回家的路好遠 地球還是沒有停止轉圈
生命不斷在更變 生活總有看不清的盲點

今夜的月光超载太重 照着我一夜哄不成梦 每根头发都失眠~

Before bed,

The first Monday ever (since I came here),
I hate being school...
Just because people just don't do their homework which they supposed to do...

I was totally demotivated by those people.
Why ya?
Why I become so bothered leh har??

Because the partner of mine, we supposed to do the work together...
But she just never gets her work started!
I'm the one who always being doing my own work plus her never-touched-bits-n-pieces.

Halo!
You're not a kid.
And, I'm not gonna teach you how,
pointed to whatever the way you've been brought up, ok?

You're an adult.
I'd expect you too, to take your responsibility as a postgrad student.

I'm certainly not happy to see you being so active using iphone or ipad during the class
Doing extra "works" (ie online shopping or chat-box) just in front of the teacher.
When there is a time we can both work on to the tasks.

When I've spent so many hours and hours on doing a powerpoint,
after obtaining a feedback from teacher,
don't try to ask me to simply change the sentences with your bossy tone.
Get a whiteboard and I can even show how poor is your grammar...
I dun dare to imagine how many people is gonna understand you if you do speak so in the presentation...

"你不觉得酱子的开场白别人会听得比较明白吗？"

(shake) NO!!!
Certainly NOT!!!!!

=.=

She used the google translation to do those bibliographies
The homework which I've spent uncountable nights to struggle with...
(I abit exaggerated this, apparently) But anyway,
When the teacher asked what her writing supposed to mean...
She even started to suspect the teacher's literacy -.-
And she thought her "writing" was excellent.. =.=
How well is the google translation, everyone should be aware of  many ages ago..
You're so naive har??

And what is more is those who're always absent to the class
Because of you guys,
This subject's gonna be extended to week 9 (which supposed to be finished on next week!)
Clap for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was so excited about it-soon-gonna-be-end,
even I was so cranky doing all the tasks (related to this subject) during the weekend

I was actually motivating myself by keep saying that
"Jie, don't upset! This is gonna be a past in real soon!!"

Then this morning, the teacher said to me that,
"Jie what do you that I'm going to extend the this subject until week 9?"

WHAT!!!!
Are you serious??

Anyway,
whatever la...

I'm, indeed, looking for a space to scream out all these..
Otherwise, I will be stressed out..

I certainly will be fine tomorrow.
I'm just being so clumsy at the moment.

Well, that's the end of  the bedtime story...

Good night world! (hug)

你不要不开心 (Hugs)

Because you're the one,
I can understand your sorrow even you never told;
I can feel your pain even I'm not with you.

I feel awful when you try hiding your feelings from everyone;
And when you intend showing everyone you're perfectly fine.

I know you're not.

I'm your sister.
I'm here for you to count on.

If you wanna cry...
Cry on my shoulder...

I smell the spring

assignments are in full bloom in this early spring....
rushing a 1500 words assignment last night, couldnt remember how much hour i spent into sleep...or shall i just call them nappies...
anyway.... didnt quite know what i have written in the assignment... my brain was stuffed up with caffeine and nothing else... it's pretty much looked like a paper with a thousand words surfing on the top of it... Hope the tutor has a great sense of imaginary... knowing what those words supposed to be...



fingers crossed i can get the task passed...

brgggggggggggg... *daunting****
i'm tired

LuckilyI gotU, LOVE~~

If this life is one act  
Why do we lay all these traps 
We put them right in our path  
When we just wanna be free
 
I will not waste my days  
Making up all kinds of ways 
To worry about all the things  
That will not happen to me
 
So I just let go of what I know 
I don't know  
And I know I only do this 
By living in the moment  
Living my life Easy and breezy  
With peace in my mind I got peace in my heart  
Got peace in my soul  
Wherever I'm going, 
I'm already home 
I'm living in the moment
 
I'm letting myself off the hook for things
 I've done I let my past go past  
And now I'm having more fun 
 I'm letting go of the thoughts 
That do not make me strong 
And I believe this way can be the same for everyone  
And if I fall asleep 
I know you'll be the one who'll always remind me  

To live in the moment  
To keep living my life  
Easy and breezy  
With peace in my mind 
I got peace in my heart  
Got peace in my soul  
Wherever I'm going, 
I'm already home
 
I can't walk through life facing backwards 
I have tried I tried more than once to just make sure 
And I was denied the future 
I'd been searching for I spun around and hurt no more  

I'm living in the moment 
I'm living my life  
Just taking it easy  
With peace in my mind  
I got peace in my heart I got peace in my soul 
Oh, wherever I'm going, 
I'm already home 
I'm living in the moment



p.s: Thanks for the song. It is so deep appreciated! I feel lucky to have you all the times. Whenever I am down, you'll be the one who can always cheer me up and you never do it wrong... I miss you so badly... Yes, I DO!!! T_T

不，见人心。

别说了 再说我就要哭了

总之我是一个人

默默走回家 又静静关了灯

别点歌 别让伤心的情歌

惹得你睡不安稳

最怕空气突然安静的那一瞬间，

突然想起

曾经让我这么心动的你

我冷漠是不想被看出

太容易被感动触及

我比较喜欢现在的自己

不太想回到过去

我常常为我们之间

忽远忽近的关系 担心或委屈

别人只一句话

就刺痛心里每一根神经

你的孤单是座城堡

让人景仰却处处防疫

你的温柔 那麼缓慢

小心翼翼脆弱又安静

也许我们都意会到

这次面对的幸福 是真的来临

因为太珍惜所以才犹豫

忘了先把彼此抱紧

我不是流言 不能猜测你

疯狂的游戏 需要谁准许

别人怎麼说 我都不介意

我爱不爱你 日久见人心

我要的幸福

我迷茫，但我从不逃避现实；
我冷漠，可是只要遇见对的人，我会燃烧；
我怯弱，但必要时我会拿出足够的勇气；
我没有宏伟的理想，但每一天我都在默默的努力；
我也许渺小，但我值得自己骄傲！

為感情付出　為活著而忙碌
為什麼而辛苦　我仔細紀錄
用我的雙眼　在夢想裡找路
該問路的時候　我不會裝酷
我還不清楚　怎樣的速度
符合這世界　變化的腳步
生活像等待　創作的黏土
幸福　我要的幸福　漸漸清楚
夢想　理想　幻想　狂想　妄想
我只想堅持每一步　該走的方向
就算一路上　偶而會沮喪
生活是自己　選擇的衣裳
幸福　我要的幸福　沒有束縛 

在不遠處....

Cheer upppPPPP ;)

I couldn’t fall back into sleep since I woke up in the darkest just before the dawn.

I dunno why but it does happen in a quite-high frequency recently (since last week)

And some way I think it is due to the freeze-up from my mattress or…

High level of caffeine in my bloodstream as I got inoculatte yday or…

I am overexcited to have to do my works and get everything sorted out just before next Tuesday… (It seems like something’s gonna happen next week… *evil grin**)

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. =X Shut your mouth up! =X Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................

Anyway…

Today’s supposed to be a productive day since I had my breakfast so early…

Nothing’s special for the weekdays…

As usual, I had oats with pieces of apricot,

2 slices of bread spread with peanut butter and nutella (I become a big fan of these two naughties since I arrived here… I dunno why, it seems weird. And it’s just SO-NOT-ME!!)

A mug of expresso with milk (so, I can’t call it a REAL expresso??)

And the aroma will just turn everything into my favor… :)

Balance =]

I am really happy in doing what I am doing…

I am happy to be here and start my master…

I am happy to learn something new… something different from my major in the past…

I am happy to cook myself a great meal after a long study day…

I am happy to wake up early and start my day with a fabulous breakfast…

I am happy in creating some more new recipes and named them as J’s specials...

I am happy to have to speak in English and get to know new friends from other cultures…

I am happy to meet people and knowing we are sharing some interests… for example, we may find ourselves attempting to have coffees from different coffee shops in the campus and vote for the best one…

I am happy when we have misunderstood something in the lecture and we sit together and figure out the solution by ourselves…

I am happy to have a teacher who is very responsive to every single student even though she knows we’re native speakers but she never fail to pay attention to what we’re saying… She will always listen passively and actively…

I am happy to have a couple of housemates; they are caring, easy going, helpful and trustful.

Ya, after all these…

Like today, I woke up early 630 in the morning and grabbed something quick to eat…

And the lectures, lab and tutorial would be just filling in the schedule.

Until 630 in the evening, I could finally go home… I was tired and starving…

Standing in the cold, wondering how far away the bus still…

Greeted the bus driver with a smile…

As usual, I found a seat just behind her…

Looking outside through the window, thinking what I gonna have for dinner…

Finally I recognised the intersection, rang the bell…

Said “thank you” to the driver, got off the bus… I felt the wind…

Walking in the dark, imagined most households were probably just having their dinner under warmth…

Someone was making footsteps on the road…

It seemed like someone has his long day as me…

Turned my head over…

No one else…

It was just me…

An echo underneath my boots…

But anyway....

I appreciate everything's happening now,

and something I have cried for so long and finally I got there…

Heartily, thanks goodness for that...

p.s: When you think of life, you think it sucks; but when you start living for your life, you’re actually enjoying it..

I've learnt something new yday (from a lecture) ;) *keke**

Magic for goodness!!!

When I was young I thought magic is ridiculous..

And I’m never a big fan of magic

But as the time goes, I wish I can be a magician…

I wanna make everyone living in the fullest of love

Love more and to be loved most…

No drama.. no sadness.. nothing comes with grief….

All’s about happiness and joy… (nothing else)

p.s: Love, I just want you to be happy…

Cheer up! Nothing can beat you! You gonna trust yourself!!

Be tough!! ^^

我还是要幸福

我一定不要再招惹自己哭

所有软弱就从这里落幕

别跟着我 追寻 梦想

我如果很幸福

我就能确定我选择没有错

确定自己再也不会轻易受挫崩脱

明天 开始 这一切都结束

属于我的昨天之前的结局

我决定我的决定

属于我的明天之后的憧憬

我坚持我的坚持

So?

There are bunches and bunches of flower displayed at the entrance of Woolworths.
Ya, Valentines' Day! I know... (I really do..)
But,
why can't I find ANY apple in such a huge mall?!!!
WTH -.-

心魔

人生苦短，
当你在彷徨什么是对什么是错的瞬间，
问问自己的心，
“它值得我那样做吗?”

太过在乎黑与白，
你会很容易因现实中存在着一大片的灰色而感到无比的沮丧，
感慨这个世界...因而很失望。

今天的你，如果不开心，是错吗?
它，不是错。
说不定，因为你今天的不愉快而让明天的你更愿意释出灿烂的笑容呢？

记得：
选你所爱，爱你所选。

What' up?!

25 years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar

And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on?

And I say hey, hey
I said hey, what's goin' on?
And I say hey, hey
I said hey, what's goin' on?

And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
In this institution

And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution

p.s: Turning 23 year-old this year, I feel exactly the same as this song.

WHAT"S GOING ON???

星空

你来过 然后你走后
只留下星空

这一片无言无语星空
为什么静静看我泪流
如果你在的时候
会不会伸手 拥抱我

命运偷走如果
只留下结果

天真

新年前夕，当别人都在兴高采烈的争放烟花的时候，A问B为什么不也凑个热闹一起放，B回答说：”等不到最黑的夜，烟花就不会是最完美。”
后来，A在偶然的情况下再次遇见了B。于是A就问B当天最漂亮的烟花是否非B莫属了呢? B沉默了，然后说：”我错过了…”

如果你读懂我的伤悲，

我微笑不是假装，
我心独自在逞强。

100分的恋爱。

你问，为什么我老是望着窗外？
因为，我很爱发呆。

很爱观察周围来来往往的路人甲乙丙丁；
很爱看马路上的车子；
很爱凝视天空幻想与太阳对话...

在喧哗的世界，我想要追求一种心理上的平静。
一种像是恋爱中无法言语的甜蜜。

1.2.12

Life is not measured by the number of breaths that we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If someothing is trying to bring you down, it only means that you are above it. Don't be afraid!

別說我一直找不到方向

我試著飛越那扇窗 溫度卻讓身體再次感到很沮喪
我微笑不是假裝 我追是因為渴望
我奮不顧身奔向 每一道陽光
我跌倒是種成長 我哭是一種釋放

一个人睡

醒来只有我一个人
分不清黄昏或清晨

红绿黄

人生为什么处处充满着矛盾?

原本很讨厌的，
然后可以接受，
渐渐又很喜欢。

说不能做的，
到最后，
鬼遮眼，
莫名其妙的做了，
真叫让人看傻了眼。

信心十足的说一定行的，
结果让人失望时，
脸色怎么那么难堪呢?

满口谩骂的时候，
一点也不留情，
后来，怎么又变成别人的影子了呢?

看人看事总不能太过于主观。
否则，就是有那么一天
你会连自己也看不起的...

有句话是这样子的，
“人必自侮,然后人侮之。”

就是拿来形容我这种人。

A newly start

After two days I allowed myself not doing any worth thing at home.
(except producing CO2 and working few hours in Thai Express)

Today, I have to get several things done (at least).

I washed clothes in the morning.
I had my breakfast.
I did go to the toilet and work hard to the big business.

Then, what's next?
Excercise!!!

p.s:
I suspect myself having Bulimia nervosa. Keep finding food every single time. Even though I know I have gained some weight since my holidays started. It sounds a bit weird. I don't know why.. =(

Because I miss you.

Couldn't fall into sleep last night,
Cause I miss you.

Couldn't sleep tight in the cold,
Cause you weren't here, holding me tight.

I was awakened in the early morning,
Cause I'm so scared I will be late to work.

I hate the sudden quiet moment,
Cause I know it's gonna be me missing you...

How I wish you are here with me now :'(

I'm mine, not yours.

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again..