Faith enough

Sometimes just nothing..
it's faith enough.

never explain yourself to someone else
if he/she isn't just into you
it's just a waste...
know it?

I'm just a weird guy..
really really weird..

I dun feel like talking when I'm feeling unwell
Being sick, none..
none I'll talk about
and nothing's gonna to be concerned.

So, dun panic!
It's just me.

After being standing for days
walking for hours and hours
I'm absolutely exhausted.
and, my knees...

somehow, I just feel wrong with my knees
something like GOUT you may hear of
it's just awful.
I get used to it nowadys
I really don't like it..

固执

喜欢听歌 感人的歌
它让我觉得 爱是对的
睡不着 我就醒着
喜欢唱歌 动人的歌
它让我获得一点心得
得不到 我就放掉
不再让日子被打乱了

寂寞很吵 我很安静
情绪很多 我很镇静

因为投入 所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒

固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果

终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避 让感情犯错

接受

当你觉得还有很多，甚至一大堆（大大小小）的事情必须等你去完成的时候，别气馁，因为这正好证明了你还有存在的价值。不要怨恨在心里太久，因为事情一旦被情绪耽误了，今天不做，明天是双倍；同样的，今天不走，明天得跑。

你不会天天都遇到天使（就如，生活中你也不可能100% 就只允许好事情发生），因为天使不是一个人可以专属的，天使还要帮助其他更多人。

与其空等待天使来帮忙，那为何不让自己也当上好几会的天使，去帮助其他人？

怨恨，解决不了问题...又何必让问题变成心中的怨恨呢？

人生就是铁跌撞撞，开心沮丧累积的一段旅程。

记住，天底下没有白吃的的午餐，只有吃不到的午餐。

说...

说
要回来的人，走了都不回来；

说
要离开的人，谁能留得下来？

还能说什么？

还能做什么？

还能等什么？

我能够怎样，请您告诉我...

p.s: my facebook account's currently deactivated.. don't blame me...I'm so depressed right at the moment..

Don't bitch me there!!

I will show you in one day!!

Socrates said, Wisdom begins in wonder.

You never know.. my limits

I　HATE YOU!!!!

BITCH

...but...

sometimes, it's really hard to say...
but, you know, it's inside your body...
somethings must be going wrong in there...
you cant really speak it out, but you can actually feel it...

it's not that complicated
honestly..
but..

you know what i'm trying to say?

you dun, never mind...
because neither than i...

just recently...
i'm so hopeless, helpless...
whatever happens, just make me become more frustrated
and also impatient..

i couldn't explain why
but..

you know,
i think i'm the one who should be taken the risperidone.
not the patient, but me...

please dont ask me why.
currently,
i just like to wrap myself firmly inside the quilt,
suck my ears into the earphones, turn on the music to the highest volume,
and my tears will then come out onto my face voluntarily..

it's just weird.

patients have been so nice to me..
even their family

yesterday, when i was climbing the stairs to level 5
i met one of patient's wife,
she was in front of me, and i didnt realise of her anyhow
but she just looked back and then she said "Hai" to me..
it was surprising, to be honest...
(i never met this situation before)
and, i asked her about her husband..
she said, he might be discharged during the weekend..
and, i said, that's good...
we just had the little 5 minutes conversation there...
and then we broke up in the corridor (on the way back to my ward)

there was another patient,
when my preceptor and i were sending her to another ward during the night,
in the last few minutes, before we depart, she just quickly grabbed my hands,
and said to me, "thank you so much, my darling. you're a good girl"
she was a little bit confused and kept calling me "pat"
i dunno why,
but i know she appreciate everything you've done to her.
i said to her, "that's alright, my job!"
and then, i wished her all the best in the future.
she just smiled to me and said "thank you",
what's a lovely lady.

sometimes,
you're just lucky enough to meet those patients
but, sometimes, nope...

some of them are not that incorporated...
but,
as you never know,
how hopeless they are when they have to stay in the hospital like this.
they know they're sick,
but, once the dr cant clarify the reasons of their illness,
they have to stay, and heaps and heaps of the test (including the blood test, urine test, x-ray, etc) have to be ongoing.
consequently, they will become impatient at times.

if you put yourself into the picture,
you can image,
how that looks like...

after those three weeks,
i cant promise any further,
but,
i can see myself in the future now..

i dont want to be a super nurse (rushing the works all the time),
but, instead,
i wanna be a good nurse (caring for the people, not the work)

i dun really know how much better i can do during my placement,
but,
as much as i can... i swear..

i believe,
there're some steps before the angel can actually help people
what if, you never know..

god bless me!! ;)

Wondering

How many litres of tears are needed before I become a real angel to help other people?

Am I expecting myself to know everything too much?

Why can't I be more confident being a third year nursing student?

What am I scared of?

Why I feel like something goes wrong on me?

Somebody can tell me?

Am I still afraid?

Am I a little nobody in your eyes?

谁不希望化成蝴蝶 继续往高处飞
简单原来最难去追求 真实该怎麽拥有

牵绊着多余的负累 和埋葬过的眼泪
勇敢和坚定 不会成长一夕间


人人都有伪装的外衣
隐藏受伤的自己 谁不渴望痊癒